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Name:
Vincent Chen Junhao
School:
Ngee Ann Polytechnic-Just Graduated
Age: 20
DOB: 19dec1988
Gender: Male

Zodiac Sign:
Sagittarius
Nov 23 - Dec 21
Sagittarius is exuberant, fun loving and social; you need to be pretty, witty and able to mix with his friends.

His enthusiasm and need for challenge causes him to jump into half baked schemes and plans that haven't been well thought out; provide him with some of the basic missing details.

He is a romantic, but only superficially, you'll have to teach him what it's all about.
He is extravagant in most everything he does; you'll have to help him control the spending.

His honest and naive nature makes him tactless when it comes to saying the right thing, he's prone to putting his foot in his mouth, re-interpret what he says to you the way he should have said it.

He likes sports and the out doors so learn to like these things because he'll expect you to tag along.

A few don'ts:
Don't question his honesty or integrity, he regards them highly.
Don't ridicule his pie in the sky ideas and schemes, be patient and forbearing.

Don't expect him to sit around like a couch potato, he's not the type.
Don't think that you'll be bored, you won't have that problem.

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(Sunday, December 28, 2008/11:29 PM)

没原因 就是喜欢你

在初次相遇 有重逢的心情

深呼吸 让心动隐形

完美的爱情 是无声的旋律

听 我听你 不确定的语气

等 我等你 放下你的犹豫

嘿 如果你 轻轻闭上眼睛

我会明白 你做的决定

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律

在你手心 会有谁给你的美丽

静者恒静 就让我的心安静地守着你

祝福不用回音

没原因 就是喜欢你

就像海眷恋 天空般 的心情

你前进 看着你背影

就足够世界 无条件 的放晴

你 如果已 爱上他的姓名

爱 如果已 没有我的空隙

嘿 只要你 可以永远开心

我会情愿 渐渐被忘记

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律

在你手心 会有谁给你的美丽

静者恒静 就让我的心安静地守着你

把祝福送给你

Oh I believe Cause I believe

那幸福不灭的定律

你的手心 不一定要由我握紧

就像恒星 总会有发光的原因

Oh I believe 你值得被珍惜

也值得我放弃

suddenly moodiness outburst.



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(/4:58 PM)

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
Believe it or not! I am one of those things that happen to good people.




我以为 - 品冠


你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为

我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望


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(Saturday, December 27, 2008/1:56 AM)

memories are meant to be forgotten.
good or bad. both sides.
2008' thank you and good bye.
=)


心跳 - Wang Lee Hom

想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点
    
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
     爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
    
但身不由己出现在胸口 两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
    
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
    
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
    
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好


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(Thursday, December 25, 2008/2:20 AM)

Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust
I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance

Merry Xmas 08' n Happy New Year 09'



說 說你為什麼 為什麼要走 說你為何要分手
別拖 求你別軟弱 求你說出口 分手的理由

但你卻 拖 拖 拖 拖到什麼時候
如果要走卻又為何停留
請你別 拖 拖 拖 大聲的說出口
請你要痛就痛給我個快活

如果說你要走 我不會留 我不去管以後
然後我們說清楚 一句話就夠
如果說你要走 我不會留 我不去管以後
多麼痛 多麼的難過
別越愛越難過

然後連話都不說 繼續沉默
連朋友都沒的作 為了什麼
然後跟別人說你其實還是愛我
就算了吧 壞人我來作


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(Saturday, December 20, 2008/2:20 PM)

Lonely birthday yesterday. well not that much of specialties.
went gym. went home. rest at home.
That goes my celebration for yesterday.
*laugh* pathetic. since primary 3 onwards till last year.
This is how my birthdays are celebration.
Normal me doing usual daily routine stuffs.
Last night staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hope or dream
Try to dull an inner scream
But you saw me through
Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home and now I'm in love
You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life
Living in a world so cold
You were there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
Holding your hands
I won't fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
We never be alone
But all that has long turned into ashes and blown away.
Never to find the sparkle again.


我从前不相信
捉摸不定的爱情
那天的故事像城市传奇
也许神的安排
让我终於遇见你
你说要一点时间考虑
我很愿意
把心快讯给你
你让我把对爱的迷
变成决心
爱上未来的你
为了一颗柔软的心
我被困在这爱情的迷雾里
想念著消失的你
爱上未来的你
我也没有时光机器
只能活在第一次的见面里
捍卫了我们的约定
你是那么单纯的一条美人鱼
活在惊心动魄城市里悄悄呼吸
没有了力气
看著人海思考爱情迷题
找到你爱上你
我的脑袋里面的大小回忆
没有留下空白
你占据了所有区域
我不需要谁定下的规矩说可不可以
我知道自己很爱你

it's ok


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(Friday, December 19, 2008/12:17 AM)

thank you for everything you have done up till.
may it's good or it's bad.
i did cherish the memories and times.
you gave me the most memorable birthday last year.
unfortunately, this year there won't be a birthday celebration at all.
cause i ruined it all.
i cried. i suffered. i vowed.
if there's still hope, maybe in the future you still be someone i cherish and loved.
there will not be anyone replaceable in my life.
it's you who gave me all i needed once.
but now i know there's no way you can give them to me anymore.
cause the place is replaceable and the heart once known was forgotten and faded.
cries and tears won't change it.
the pain indulged in my heart won't heal yet.
when you have to look away
when you don't have much to say
that's when I love you
I love you, just that way
to hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk, with two left feet
I love you, endlessly
and when you're mad cause i never listen
forget i'm waiting in the rain
baby I love you
I love you anyway
cause made my promise every night
you can count on me for life
when nothing you do could change my mind
the more I learn,
the more I love,
the more my heart can't get enough
when I love you
no matter what
so when you turn to hide your eyes
I love you a little more each time
and when you can't quite match your clothes
or when you laugh at your own jokes
thats when I love you
I love you, more than you know
and when you forget that we had a date
or that look that you give when you show up late
baby I love you
I love you anyway
no matter what.
thank you.
cherished.

我知道傷心不能改變什麽
那麽讓我誠實一點
誠實 難免有不能控制的宣洩
只有關上了門不必理誰

一個人坐在空蕩包廂裏面
手機讓它休息一夜
難.想切歌切掉回憶的畫面
眼淚不能流過十二點

生日快樂 我對自己說
蠟燭點了 寂寞亮了
生日快樂 淚也融了
我要謝謝你給的你拿走的一切

還愛你 帶一點恨
還要時間 才能平衡
熱戀傷痕 幻滅重生
祝我生日快樂


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(Wednesday, December 17, 2008/7:43 PM)

i'm really so mess up right now. feel very messy.
i don't feel right at all.
wanna move forward without you
but i don't dare.
something doesn't feel right at all.
i'm always indecisive. who wants a guy that indecisive with zero confidence in doing things?
i feel like washing this pain once and for all.
yet i wanna feel happy at the same time.
why is it so hard? =`(


我曾经以为 
那是一次潇洒的邂逅
所以我一直相信 
能够轻易说hello
抱着游戏的心情
考验自己没有防备的感情
不在乎自己有没有这种能力
我必须承认 
不敢释放我的真情
所以我相信也会是你的问题
太多太多的激情 
闯进尘封已久的禁地
让我们失去选择的余地
是你决定我的伤心
是你决定我的伤心
如果我们还会重新相遇
我会用感觉
拥有所有的你
是你决定我的伤心
是你决定我的伤心
如果我们还会重新相遇
我不会让你
决定我的伤心
☆歌词提供:张保湖
相信我 
不是有意打扰你的心
但我如何会知道
竟会是你决定我的伤心
我必须承认 
不敢释放我的真情
所以我相信也会是你的问题
太多太多的激情 
闯进尘封已久的禁地


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(Tuesday, December 16, 2008/11:38 PM)

SORRY!
Cries in a distance
Can’t stop the tremble
I’m just awaiting my turn
Hiding will never
Save me forever
The guns gonna get me for sure
Dear God I pray why won’t you be happy
Come to me and take my hand to eternal paradise
Like mama would say
Everything will be okay
CAUSE All I hear is 3 2 1

The scream from the guns
And then 1by1
No one gets to run
Someone’s dad or mom
Sister, brother and son
No…no…
CAUSE All I feel is 1 2 3
My tears start to bleed
Smell of roses on my feet
I feel sore…
I fall…
I call…


=`(


淚水 將我淹沒 到底誰該難過
究竟 是誰放掉 這段感情
我才終於明白 辦不到的承諾 就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴她 我不愛她
笑著難過 自我懲罰
想終止這一切掙扎 橫了心 說真心謊話

別告訴她 我還想她
恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口 就讓沉默 代替所有回答

我才終於明白 辦不到的承諾 就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴她 我不愛她
笑著難過 自我懲罰
想終止這一切掙扎 橫了心 說真心謊話

別告訴她 我還想她
恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口 就讓沉默 代替所有回答

我不愛 我不痛 我不懂
我的心 早已掏空
真心話 言不由衷

請告訴她 我不愛她
笑著難過 自我懲罰
想終止這一切掙扎 橫了心 說真心謊話

別告訴她 我還想她
恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口 就讓沉默 代替所有回答

別告訴她 我還想她 就讓沉默 代替所有回答


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(/3:52 PM)

currently got up to episode 14(last one).
freaking nice show la.
everyone must watch!
channel U now showing.

anyway just hope my life has no more falls liao. =)
must continue to strive and move on.
Goals in life: IT auditor [$5k pay(standard pay from the salary gross chart)] - getting more ambitious =) hee
MUST SMILE! VINCENT!
you can be replace but so can you.
=`(
don't why it still hurts me while saying thiss.
nevermind.
must try to look up and walk this path to the other end of the light.
*sob* just let me cry and scream out the whole day bah.
maybe i will feel much more better.
thank you year 2008.
you left me the WORST and BEST memories. miserable.

if you didn't show your attitude again, today won't be that terrible.
blame it on yourself.


中文名
:
不良笑花
资源格式: RMVB
版本: [国语中字]
首播时间: 2008年09月07日
导演: 张博昱
演员: 蒋小花 .... 杨丞琳
唐门 .... 潘玮柏
贾思乐 .... 藤冈靛
江蜜 .... 陈妍希
蒋大树 .... 检场
阿八婶 .... 文英
贾母 .... 席曼宁
地区: 台湾
语言: 普通话
简介:
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【剧  名】:不良笑花
【集  数】:14集
【年  份】:2008
【格  式】:TV-RMVB
【语  言】:国语
【字  幕】:中文
【导  演】:张博昱
【演 员】:
蒋小花....杨丞琳饰
唐 门....潘玮柏饰
贾思乐....藤冈靛饰
江 蜜....陈妍希饰
蒋大树....检 场饰
阿八婶....文 英饰
贾 母....席曼宁饰
【内容简介】:
故事梗概:
   专业时尚造型大师-唐门、小花饰品专卖店老闆-蒋小花,原本不可能有交集的两个人,却因一次意外的共乘相遇。凡事要求完美的唐门,本来就不容许任何不完 美的东西在他面前呈现,但蒋小花,那个全身俗到最高点的恐龙妹竟然就这样走进他的生命?更夸张的是:她还敢对他做的造型品头论足?!
“没有品味的人比感冒病毒还可怕,妳,最好离我远一点”!唐门对小花,避之唯恐不及,心想,永不要再见她。但怎料到,这个俗暴的恐龙妹竟会捡到自己最珍贵的剪刀组,还要胁他,要他替她改造,让她可以嫁入豪门?!
“我,不会接吻怎么办”?
乐观自信的小花,一向对自己的造型无敌有自信,可是却在小学同学贾思乐的回国欢迎会中,第一次对自己的造型感到挫败,为了让自己配得上贾思乐,她找唐门帮她改造!可是江山易改本性难移,小花外观虽然可以打扮地漂漂亮亮,可是本性却怎么也改不了。
小时候就好打抱不平,对总是被别班男生欺负,又胖又丑又笨的贾思乐,小花义不容辞伸出援手,还常讲笑话给他听。那时,贾思乐就许下长大后,一定要娶小花的承诺。虽然贾思乐后来随父母远赴日本求学,但他从来没有忘记过小花,所以12年后,他回来了,而且要追求小花!
为了可以跟贾思乐接吻,小花找唐门讨教,但唐门这个示范性的吻,却使两人不知不觉产生曖昧情愫。唐门逐渐意识到自己对小花的情感,但内心却不愿相信自己竟会爱上小花,所以更用力地将小花往贾思乐推去!而小花也理不清楚自己到底是爱贾思乐还是唐门了?
“只要找机会,让那个小花知难而退就行了”!
江蜜,是贾思乐母亲心头唯一承认的媳妇。贾思乐为了躲避母亲的撮合,积极把江蜜和他最要好朋友~唐门撮合在一起,并向贾母介绍小花。好不容易贾母从反对,莫名其妙转为支持时,小花竟然告诉他,她爱上他最好的朋友~唐门?!
江 蜜为了顺着贾思乐,开始与唐门约会,也帮助小花,实际上她却一直在找机会让小花知难而退。一开始她以为小花爱的是贾思乐的钱,要唐门帮忙让小花爱上他,没 想到最后唐门竟然真的爱上小花?而贾思乐也没有因此回到自己身边,再加上一直支持她的贾母态度有了180度的大转变,支持小花嫁入贾家……
这四个人的爱情,究竟会如何?


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蒋小花 24岁(杨丞琳 饰)
像时下的小女生,爱在身上别满任何闪亮闪亮的饰品,恨不得把所有颜色都穿在身上,根本不管搭不搭!这种品味,在任何有时尚sense的人眼中都是惨不忍睹、俗到最高点,但小花觉得他们才是没眼光!
在自家经营的饰品店帮忙,从小只有爸爸和阿嬤。以为妈妈过世,却不知道其实自己不是爸爸所生!她的亲生母亲,未婚生下她后,就将她交给大树,不知去向……爸爸和阿嬤因为不知如何解释,索性骗她妈妈已经过世……
虽然没有妈妈,但小花活得乐观自信!很爱讲笑话的她永远停不下来,脑中像有笑话资料库一样,想到就会讲个笑话逗人开心!
一向对自己的造型无敌有自信的小花,却在小学同学贾思乐面前感到挫败,为了让自己配得上眼前这位王子,她找上毒舌造型师唐门,帮她改造!

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唐门 26岁(潘瑋柏 饰)
时尚、品味一流的名造型师,专为艺人打理造型。自信、臭屁、机车、毒舌,除贾思乐外几乎没有人能跟他相处。生平最讨厌不美的东西,万万没想到会认识俗女,还受她威胁,要他改造她!?
虽说是他在改造小花,却没想到同时被她影响‧本来心肠就不坏,渐渐也发现了小花的优点。只是毒舌本色,明明心里想说好话,一出口却变本加厉,和小花衝突连连。
知道小花改造的目的是要嫁入豪门,但没想到那个豪门竟是自己最好的朋友贾思乐!唐门内心产生巨大挣扎!为顾全友情,他应该说出真相,偏偏他和小花下了赌注,不准将这件事告诉任何人!
更惨的是,唐门再不愿意也不得不面对的——他爱上小花了!?这个全世界最俗气的女生?!天哪~不会吧?
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贾思乐 24岁(藤冈靛 饰)
小 花的小学同班同学。虽然家里有钱,但小时候又胖又丑又笨、总是被别班男生欺负、脸上永远是一把鼻涕一把泪的,总是靠爱打抱不平的小花出手援救,并说笑话让 他破涕为笑。从此,贾思乐就很喜欢跟在小花后面,一天到晚叫她说笑话给他听!「我长大以后,一定要娶妳!」小小的贾思乐许了小花一个未来,但小花只当他是 开玩笑。
小学毕业后,跟父母去了日本,12年后回来掌管家族企业,所以讲话有日本腔,中文程度也不太好。当他回国出现在小花眼前时,不禁令小花傻眼!这个又高又帅的王子是贾思乐?还口口声声说要娶自己!?小花根本不敢相信……「现在是你在说笑话吗?」

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江蜜 22岁 (陈妍希 饰)
与其说她美丽,不如说她的气质更吸引人。自信、大方,话不多,却让人感受到安静的力量,这就是她未语先笑的魅力!
和贾家是家族世交,又和贾思乐是青梅竹马,所以当她父母搬到海外去拓展事业时,自然放心让她住在贾家。再加上贾思乐的妈妈一直很喜欢她,把她当作媳妇,所以当贾思乐说自己喜欢小花时,她依然相信,贾思乐到最后一定还是属於她……
因贾思乐认识唐门,并很清楚唐门对她一见钟情。瞭解贾思乐是故意安排她和唐门约会,但仍顺势利用机会假意接近唐门,实际试探贾思乐的反应。最后得知唐门爱上小花,遂要唐门帮她……

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蒋大树 48岁(检场 饰)
小花的爸爸。
心肠很软的烂好人,很容易借人钱、看电视会哭。原本生意做得还不错,却因不是请客就是让人赊帐,所以做什么倒什么。
一心想当演员,却永远只有临演的分,虽然只有一两句台词,就足够让他开心地飞上天。然而他的内心却藏了一个天大的秘密~那就是『小花不是他亲生的!』
原来当初他会愿意扶养小花,是因为喜欢小花的母亲~雅安,当她遭情人拋弃,未婚生下小花时,他照顾她们,但小花的母亲只当他是好朋友,她将小花託付给他送给一个好人家后,便不知去向。而他却因痴情,亲自扶养小花,后又怕后母会虐待小花,终生未娶

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阿八婶 65岁(文英 饰)
小花的阿嬤。
简单来说,就是「老小花」。阿八婶虽老,却和小花一样喜欢任何闪亮的东西。当年对於大树抱回毫无血缘关係的小花,且为了她终生不娶,非常不谅解,后来觉得小花真的很可爱,疼爱小花就像大树亲生。
很节俭、小气,每天待在家里做手工、穿珠花,供饰品店贩售。最大的心愿是到乡下买块地,养鸡养鸭过简单的生活。所以小花平时就唱着「蒋老太太有块地呀依啊依啊呦~」
祖孙俩感情很好,非常疼爱小花,总在她难过时安慰她;小花也很孝顺,一心期待有一天能为阿嬤买一块地

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贾母(雅安) 48岁(席曼宁 饰)
贾思乐的妈妈,其实是后母。
有些许姿色,但尖锐的眼神和一张冷漠的脸足以让人不寒而慄!
身为贾氏集团负责人的她,其实有一段不为人知的过去。当年那段不堪回首的感情,让她变得不再相信任何人,因此对於贾思乐想与出身不佳的小花结婚非常不满,想尽办法要让小花知难而退。一直到她发现小花竟是…

JoJo 24岁(小call 饰)
女,蒋小花的小学同学兼好友。
在银行当小妹。聒噪、爱打扮、走台妹路线。和小花的穿着打扮品味一样,但两人都觉得比对方美,虽然时常斗嘴,感情还是像姊妹淘一样好。

豆子 24岁 (是元介 饰)
男,小花的小学同学兼好友。
在饮料鸡排店工作,时常送外卖来给小花。个性基本上就是个男版小花,却也常被小花和JoJo欺负。

赖瑞克 25岁(丹尼 饰)
男,唐门的贴身助理。
高高帅帅,却又搞笑、很会耍嘴皮子却很害怕唐门,是唐门身边的窗口和翻译机,有时会扮演推唐门和蒋小花一把的角色。

吉诺 26岁(庞云徽 饰)
男,造型师。
为了赢可以用尽心机不择手段。和唐门的做事态度和理念完全不同。对女人都是用好言软语,目的是要赚她们的钱;而唐门虽然嘴巴坏,但讲的却都是最有用的建议。

唐父&唐母 50岁 (庞祥麟&金玉嵐 饰)
唐门的父亲和母亲。
唐父是外科医生权威,因唐门不愿走医生这条路导致父子关係决裂,最后经小花修补俩人关係。
唐母是温良谦让型慈母,对唐门离家伤心不已、对先生固执无可奈何,多年来只盼望看到父子俩有重修旧好的一天。


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(Monday, December 15, 2008/8:28 PM)



Thats Why I Love You - Ashlee Simpson

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
I don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep it alive

If you don't know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds and I know

You said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
I stay in love with you


It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
When I stumble and fall
How I gonna act
Like what I had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
You know my heart is breaking
We learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know


what am i doing?
i shouldn't get jealous
but the things you used to do for me is yet to someone else.
well what do you care?
i just an empty shell.
you used to give it your all.
not even trying once again
you gave up long time ago.
you said you chose none.
it's complicated.
you're loving your life right now.
nevermind i'm just an empty shell.

you don't care.
you don't wanna know.
you don't feel it anymore.
cast aside everything.

right now i'm a nobody.
lost inside. dark outside.

what am i suppose to do? what am i suppose...

i tried so hard to forget you.
i think of you.
i tired so hard to ignore you.
i seems i can't.
i tried so hard to get you back.
it hurts.
i tried not to fall.
i fell down again.
i tried not to turn back.
i turned again.

is this me? who is this fucker?
who is the stupid mindless asshole?
no use writing this online, saying it out i guess.
you feel nothing. it not you anymore.
i just feel lousy.
it's ain't the same no more.


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